My incredible journey to find Jesus only to abandon him

Let the journey begin…

I was married to Jesus, but like many marriages, it ended in divorce.

This is the first of many posts detailing with what can only be described as an incredible faith journey of discovery and disappointment. It is imperative my reader understand I was madly in love with Jesus for about fifteen years. When I began my investigation into my evangelical faith it was with the purest of motives. I wanted to strengthen and deepen may relationship with God — not end it.

So why embark on this mission in the first place? I was dissatisfied with evangelicals and evangelicalism. For many years I had been completely immersed in the evangelical culture both academically and ministerially and had come to realize there were some fatal flaws in the system.

After graduating from seminary, I faced a major dilemma. What do I do now? I had spent over a dozen years in evangelical institutions. First shortly after my conversion I had attended Capernwray Bible Schools in England and Austria. There I was certain I needed more theological training so upon returning home, I enrolled at Moody Bible Institute in Chicago, Il., where I spent three years earning a BA in theology. This was still not enough. I then attended Dallas Theological Seminary in Dallas, Tx., for four years earning an MA in theology. But upon graduating the many doubts concerning my evangelical faith prevented me from my original plan to enter the ministry. I had to resolve these before I could move on.

My wife and I moved to Toronto, Canada. She took a position in a private Christian school as a teacher. I found a job selling computer business forms during a deep economic recession. It was not what I had envisioned for my life. It was hard unrewarding work full of rejection and disappointment but I had no choice. In my spare time I worked feverishly researching the foundation of my faith beginning with the origins of evangelicalism.

If I am honest, I thought this would be a two year project. I wasn’t sure where it would lead, but I knew evangelicalism was definitely not reflective of original apostolic Christianity. The only question was, would I be able to rediscover the religion of the first Christians? Little did I know then, I was about to start on a long and arduous journey which would consume my entire life, destroying relationships, causing immense psychological torment and exhausting my time, energy and finances as well as hope of any career. In the decades I have devoted to my study, I have gained nothing but the satisfaction of having finally arrived at the truth about Jesus.

The time has finally come to tell my story. I have taken my research as far as I can. I have watched with increasing frustration on the sideline as evangelicalism has grown and spread in numbers and influence around the world. Now, under the Trump administration, it has found its greatest and most dangerous ally.

American evangelicalism is not a harmless religion. It is a pernicious ideology which carries many threats. These will be identified and explored. However, the focus of this blog will be the authority and credibility of the Bible as the Word of God. Drawing on my theological training and years of research, I will endeavor to offer a rational exposé of Jesus, the Bible, evangelicalism and Christianity as they relate to our overall thesis:

The Bible is the product of ancient mens imaginations and not the divine Word of God. Therefore it should not be used by groups such as evangelical Christians to dictate their view of morality on those unsympathetic to their beliefs.

I realize such a statement is bound to arose debate and anger. However, my experience as an evangelical, academic background and years of immersion in the evangelical culture uniquely qualify me to write on such a sensitive and controversial topic. Furthermore, I have paid the price and earned the right to be heard.

Literally, my entire adult life since I was seventeen has been singularly consumed with seeking to know the truth. From my conversion and throughout my life, this has remained paramount. I ask my reader to stick with me as I take them on this fascinating yet at times painful quest to find the truth.

Knowledge is truths best friend and faiths worst enemy.

Let me say in closing, I sincerely hope these posts serve as a path to intellectual freedom for those struggling to extricate themselves from evangelicalism. Fear and guilt are powerful forces which keep many psychologically imprisoned in it. For others it will serve to give them insight into a movement which is gaining momentum worldwide with potentially devastating consequences.

Religion offers its adherent immense benefits: strength, comfort, hope, guidance to name a few. Unfortunately, it also seeks to unfairly inflict its perception of truth on others even at the expense of their rights and freedoms. For this reason, it must be brought into the public square and forced to submit to objective, rational and critical examination. Then and only then, after it was been judged at the bar of human reason, can it be determined what if any influence it should have in society.

Thanks for reading and please join my on this epic quest to uncover the truth and expose the lies surrounding Jesus and the Bible.

Be yourself; Everyone else is already taken.

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Published by ronarends

I was born in London, Ontario, Canada. I attended Capernwray Bible School (England and Austria), Moody Bible Institute (Chicago, Il.), the University of Western Ontario (London, Ontario), London Baptist Seminary (London, Ontario) and Dallas Theological Seminary (Dallas, Tx.). I have had several temporary jobs over the years but my focus has alway been on an investigative study of the Bible, Jesus and Christianity particularly evangelicalism. Currently editing a massive literary undertaking deconstructing Christianity and Jesus.

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